Ptsd or anxiety disorder????

I'm 45 and i was abused most of my life by so called parents. you will see , smell , hear or think something that will lead to a leak in the blocks we create in our memory to lock away things we can't understand how or why they happened or just that they did happen. this leaking is unavoidable and maybe we are made this way i.e by leaking bit by bit we can deal with whatever horror bit by bit. Anxiety is a hard one to nail down as it can be as simple as not feeling comfortable getting into water or the thought of a particular item to those extremes of fear of or thinking your in fear of everything . with fear try thinking something like if i handle this the way anyone else would then i should be safe and knowing this i can and will do it calmly . from personal experience it snaps back into an order that allows you to deal with it on a daily basis. extreme cases or should i say worse than mine may not be like this but that gut wrenching fear is best faced even if you take every factor into account and then act, the main thing is that you act!! don't let fear rule you and lastly you may always be afraid of it or that thought or person people are brave because they still act when they fear .